no use blog_ing

blog don really help me alot..
i got alot of things to share..to tell..
but i don get to share to anyone sometimes..
and i expect myself to share in blog...
but not all of the things can be shared..
so..
i end up not sharing to anyone..
when i have own personal encounter with God..
i wanted to share..
but i don get to share...
but i wanna share to church about all the amazing things that happened in school..
i don get to..im afraid of judging actually...
i wanna share my problem..
but i don know how...
i don know how to communicate...
sometimes i wonder where i belong..
where can i go..
i don wanna be like this anymore..its not fun..
and i realize i'll get something bad if i continue like this......
but i don mind getting~~~~

Happy Birthday Eva~

25 of july 2009..i accpeted Christ..
now..
im one year old baby in CHrist..
its very meaningful for me...^^
Happy Birthday Eva..May God bless you^^lol..
thanks you Lord for bringing me back to You..
i have been growing in this pne year..
buit not enough..there will never be enough..
and thanks for "birthday present"..
all the miracles..
all the grace and touching..
and the greatest Love..
these few weeks You had been showing your Love..almost everyday...
Thanks for choosing me to serve You in speech day..which i din expect..
I know i have been repeating these for many times..but istill wanna say this one more time..
i have been going FGA for one year..I nvr expect myself to go on the stage..but now i get to be in the worship team...praise LOrd...!!^^
Thanks Lord for the "present" and the wishing from Vee shian!!hahaha...
i really appreciate it^^thanks alot..
although i often feel that im alone in this world..im heart broken...
But God..
He is always by my side..

miss you all^^

suddenly miss my old friends so much..
although i wasn't a good student..
but i nvr feel left out..
thank you for making me laugh(i still rmb)^^
thank you for accompany me during my duty..XP
thank you for cheering me up when my heart was broken..hahaha...
thank you for treating me as best friend..
thank you for never left me alone..
thank you for approaching me..
thank for having fun with me..
thank you for doing silly things with me(like using the compass in the wrong way.XP)
honestly..i was happy being friends with you guys^^
sometimes we were just so..."lame"...and i like it!!XP
sometimes we like to have family members..kaima.lou dao..kai jie..
sometimes we even have friends like wong xiong..gui fei leong leong..
and we do have alot of nice malay friends and indian friends^^you guys rockzz!!
i remember how my monitor fell down from the chair during ms Chooi class...
and sometimes we like scolding teachers behind..XP...
although now i have change..but our funny memorise never change^^
Miss you guys~!!
God bless you

stop please

please dont
dont continue anymore
im very tired
im lacking strenght to stand
keep the last strenght in me
i don wanna give up
please stop all these
hope there is someone who cares.......

Touch~

i don know what to say..
But im just so touch so what God have give me now
thank God that He build one more worrior of God in our school
thank God for changing Ivan^^
thank God for the passion we have now..
thank God for the recess Revo..
and now...
is time to give back to God..
in my last few months in school...
i'll serve God..increase my passion..
and really show God's love..
Sorry LOrd for all my mistake...
Forgive me Lord..
im always willing to serve..

Love

i listen to Love by Jaeson Ma...and this song speak to me..and show me how a true love should be...

Now Hollywood wants to make you think they know what love is.
But I'm a tell you what true love is.
Love is not what you see in the movies.
Its not the ecstasy, its not what you see in that scene
you know what I mean? I'm telling you right now, true love is sacrifice.
Love is thinking about others before you think about yourself
Love is selfless not selfish. Love is God and God is love.
Love is when you lay down your life for another
Whether for your brother, your mother, your father or your sister
Its even laying down your life for your enemies,
That's unthinkable, but think about that
Love is true
Think.

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast
It is not proud. Love is not rude, it is not self-seeking
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs
You see love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, it always perseveres
Love never fails. Love is everlasting
Its eternal, it goes on and on, it goes beyond time
Love is the only thing that will last when you die
But ask the question why? Do you have love?

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love

There is no greater love than this than he who lays down his life for his friends
Now are you willing to lay down your life for your friends?
You're probably willing to lay down your life for your mother
your father, or your best friends
But are you willing to lay down your life for even those that hate you?
I'm going to tell you who did that
The definition of love is Jesus Christ. He is love
The nails in his hands, the thorns in his brow
Hanging on a cross for your sin my sins
That is love he died for you and me while we still hated him
That is love
God is true love, and if you don't know this love
Now is the time to know, perfect love

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love
(repeat)

holidaysss~

Just wanna upload something that happened during the holiday...

went to taylor on last thursday for the CLIOD..and i choose coursr for design...feel quite happy that my group got 1st for the competition..really satisfied...i have been wonder whether im good in these..but now..im still not that sure..but i feel happy that we can be able to get first..at least im nearer to my talent....my talent that i have been finding......first..we do something like this..........then..something like this..........

then we take picture....

and i take picture tooo~~~